Moving to the crib

So many things have changed since becoming pregnant and having a child. Besides the fact that I had a cross country move, a new job arrangement and my incredible life adjustment. My attitude towards parenting has changed and I can only imagine will continue to evolve with both age and time.

When I was pregnant I prepared a lovely room down the hall with pink walls adorable pictures a comfortable chair and all the knick knacks a baby could desire. I received countless compliments on the room and I was soo proud down to the color pink stork. Took me forever to pick it out just enough pink let me tell you.

I could never imagine Co-sleeping the mere though sending my brain into frenzy the risk of SIDS, the confusion of getting them to ever go in a crib , and the lack of intimacy between you and your partner why would anyone sleep with there child. I got my answer, a child who down right REFUSED to go to sleep alone. People who have children who will sleep will tell you this is impossible. That you are doing it wrong and you will exhaust countless methods of soothing to help your child sleep. You will even eat a diet of bread and water just to make sure your not causing some wicked form of acid reflux by what you are eating. Yet nothing works you just left there in some exhaustedZombie daze and between the rock and a hard place you break you see that sleeping child in your arm and say I'm going to sleep too yet this time instead of waking the baby to place it down in the big ole crib you pull back the covers and curl up with your tiny tot instead.

Everyone tells you this is wrong, you shouldn't do it probably because some white trash somewhere decided to sleep with there child while they were on drugs or had been on quite the bender. Something I believe that no co sleeping parent should EVER DO!!!  really truly no parent should my opinion but thats just me.

As time has moved forward and I have gained confidence in my child and maybe she has gained confidence in herself. We decided its time to try the crib out again. she has woken up twice and I have loved and cuddled her back to sleep. She is not a cross the room in a pink nursery she is in my line of sight past the foot of my bed. which just now seems like miles away.  In the long run this is better and I realize I've given her the tools she needs to sleep on her own. I will be here to reassure her I'm always here if she needs me. However after sleeping with her for 6 months its just amazing how much I need her not that I miss having my hair pulled I will say I miss my little cuddle bug. I know this is just 1 step down a long road to her growing up

Stretch Marks, They Do heal ....

After I got done being pregnant There I was Cut My belly looked like a deflated beach ball and it was not cute I didn't even take a picture. I'm sorry so I can't share how pitiful it looked in the beginning. BUT IT WAS BAD !!! I looked all over the internet and I would see other peoples pictures of there after belly but it was never Recent or near giving birth it was always MONTH MONTH MONTHS later sometimes Years. How was I even to know how "Bad" it was because in my mind it could not be worse then MINE!!! I Felt soo bad I mean I was super happy I had a beautiful baby girl, but would this ever Heal. of course people would always tell me that eventually with TIME!! they would fade well what kinda calendar are we looking at dare I ask. So 10 weeks after giving birth it still didn't look pretty it looked better it had at least gone into where it needed to go the gooey feeling was still there 

this is a 10 week postpartum Shot and a 6 month after giving birth if this gives you any help. these were taken with different cameras but they have faded to either a while or a soft pink not the purple and red OMG and BTW MY naval is pierced and it did get stretched and no I didn't know that could Happen  I'm hoping I can post a more amazing in shape crazy pic for her first birthday. You know the pool party I'm planning I'm hoping to be wearing a good swimsuit.

BTW totally posting this trying to make someone feel better. You dont know me and you can't judge me I'm proud of my body I'm amazed that I can create another human being. It's the most amazing gift my body could give me. If your here to be a TOTAL PAIN and say your body didn't look like that after you gave birth .....WELL Good for you but thats not a reality for everybody and I have found that stretchmarks are genetic my mother had them and her mother I used bio oil and tried everything to prevent them nothing worked . but I am using MEDERMA and vitamin E oil for my c section scar which is now TOTALLY not noticeable :)  Oh I have also tried that coffee grounds and Olive oil I will tell how that goes 

By the way I'm a total poster child for why not to get a tattoo on your belly Happy I didn't have one and by the way if you would like to send money for future plastic surgery I will not decline :) LOL

assembling the quilt

How should I assemble the quilt ?

My feelings about Breastfeeding

You know I thought about it and I finally Did it I took a picture of Julia Breastfeeding Why Cause I'm proud of it !!! I don't want to forget her little face as she did it. I want complete credit for doing it cause I'm Gonna say it Breast Feeding is HARD and For all of my Friends who Have done it , continue to do it, and Commit too doing it. Cause you know what in the controversy, the pros of breastfeeding, all the wonderful reason you should breastfeed. No one ever seems to mention HOW HARD IT IS !!! Breastfeeding mothers don't get enough Credit.

Now you see I'm not downing people who can't breastfeed and Those people are typically very supportive, but I will be honest I dont think that many people are incapable of Breastfeeding as too who can and who can't thats for them to figure out but only a handful of my friends actually breastfeed and I can't imagine that like 80% of women can't breastfeed I mean lets be HONEST!! So why don't more people breastfeed with all the joys and wonders of breastfeeding Lets reviews

• It's all You MOM, thats Right there is never really a break from breastfeeding sure I could PUMP enough but within 4-5 hours of not having the little sucker there i'm suffering engorgement 
• If I went without pumping for a few hours I would suffer engorgement, leaking, and possible supply Issues
• Guess who is doing the midnight, 2 am  6 am and 9 am feeding Oh yeah Its always YOUR TURN!!! 
• Preparing a bottle of breast milk from Frozen takes Forever not like you formula shakers out there
• you can prop a baby up with a bottle of Formula in the carseat I mean How freakin Awesome I have to sit there and unstrap and restrap the kid in
• Finding a place to breastfeed can be nearly Impossible and trying to keep the little bugger under wraps can prove just as difficult I mean who really likes eating under a blanket :/ and for people who suggest bathroom stalls I suggest you enjoy your lunch in there 
• KIDS are KIDS just saying babies get ansy, bored, fussy, while attached too you and this can be just plain annoying here you are trying to get your kid to eat and they are just playing around SHOOT
• MY mouth gets dry when I breastfeed like Sahara desert Dry anyone else I mean I can kill a bottle of dasani in second after I start breastfeeding. 
• Having to buy unattractive Nursing Bras I mean they should get more colorful but lets be honest its just nude, white, and maybe a black and you can't just buy these at walmart no you have to go to a boutique and shell Out GOOD MONEY for these bad boys
• I have terrible fears that my boobs will be permanently scarred from breastfeeding and will sag to the ground by the time i'm 30 is that irrational
• This again could be just me but I don't feel particularly attractive breastfeeding, Yes I know My body is doing wonderful Thing but I feel more like mother Teresa and less Jessica rabbit its like being stuck in mom mode 

There I said it Wooooo Some things about breastfeeding that get on my nerves cause no one Ever ever says it and I thought it should be said and While I have just admitted 1000 reasons why breastfeeding is not easy I will keep breastfeeding because anything worth doing is typically Hard. Nothing in life is easy and I know this is what is best for my Baby girl :) and for all my formula mom friends there are akward moments you have been spared not breastfeeding. I only have about 10 more months of breastfeed I can do it!!! I will also Give big BIG BIG GIANT KUDOS too every Woman who has EVER breastfed be it 1 day of 3 years who have done it with 1 child or 20 you understand all the awkwardness and wonder that comes with breastfeeding and no one every thanked you enough. give your self a big ole pat on the back you did a wonderful thing 

The End of Elastic waist pants

Well I'm 7 weeks post par tum from having my first Little Bundle of Joy!!! Absolutely Love her We are in the progress of moving totally unexpected Mind you but Still the change is appreciated with a touch of dread. Since I will be taking a flight out in a little more then a week I'm helping my husband pack of the house for him to move. Noted I'm thinking about the big picture and what we have space for in the new house and trying to PURGE as much as Possible. I have now come to the conclusion that Nesting can all and all be called hoarding with a purpose...... Never have I ever had soo much stuff jammed in every nook and cranny of my house. While neatly put away as it was there was still more of it then I can handle soo time to let er go and try again plus the only downside of getting rid of too much is having to replace it with more shopping ^_^ a punishment I soo relish in!!!! One of the first things I just packed All My Maternity!!! okay maybe not all of it but definitely the monster size part of it; the 3rd Trimester Circus tents. Some of the more Stylish Second Trimester is still in my routine until My entire pooch is gone.  Which reminds me sooo ready to join like a mommy and me Gym thing get me a jogging stroller and enjoy the Crisp Fall Air!!!  Whose ready for Fall Kids? Best part of a summer baby I get a whole year to get prepared for swim season !! Which I need as much time as possible pregnancy was not Kind to me >.<

How Long did it take Until ALL of your maternity was out of your rotation and your skinny jeans Fit again?

Comment Below :) even you genetic abnormal people who were smaller after birth I have extreme Envy Mind you

Baby in DC : )

I absolutely had a wonderful time with Julia in D.C. Her very first Trip out went amazing and I will be honest the Orbit baby Stroller is an amazing stroller!!! Julia was not into posing super bunches but we got a bunch of shots of her in her stroller we saw the Smithsonian Museum, the Washington Memorial, and Lincoln It was a super Fabulous time and I couldn't have had more fun. 

A museum is definitely a wonderful outing for a baby 

Crazy Colic (may not be Colic)

I'm soo Happy would you believe I have a well-behaved baby I know pictures can tell a far different tale but my Child has been quite the ill pill. After talking to friend and family and a ER doctor and getting no answers I Googled and would you believe google had the answer of not enough for milk and she needs more hind milk and I'll be crazy but it worked I kept her interested in nursing for a full 20 mins on one breast no swapping didn't give her the option to walk away and I have what could only be called a Happy Sleeping baby. She had all the symptoms of colic, she had gas and green poop. Now I'm still not sure this could be a total Fluke performance but I will say I will try this again

could this be a sign of more sleep filled nights my hours are officially reversed Thanks alot baby >.< and tomorrow is Labor day and we are going to D.C. me I feel its going to be a good day. Excited :) super excited pictures to follow ^_^