Moving to the crib

So many things have changed since becoming pregnant and having a child. Besides the fact that I had a cross country move, a new job arrangement and my incredible life adjustment. My attitude towards parenting has changed and I can only imagine will continue to evolve with both age and time.

When I was pregnant I prepared a lovely room down the hall with pink walls adorable pictures a comfortable chair and all the knick knacks a baby could desire. I received countless compliments on the room and I was soo proud down to the color pink stork. Took me forever to pick it out just enough pink let me tell you.

I could never imagine Co-sleeping the mere though sending my brain into frenzy the risk of SIDS, the confusion of getting them to ever go in a crib , and the lack of intimacy between you and your partner why would anyone sleep with there child. I got my answer, a child who down right REFUSED to go to sleep alone. People who have children who will sleep will tell you this is impossible. That you are doing it wrong and you will exhaust countless methods of soothing to help your child sleep. You will even eat a diet of bread and water just to make sure your not causing some wicked form of acid reflux by what you are eating. Yet nothing works you just left there in some exhaustedZombie daze and between the rock and a hard place you break you see that sleeping child in your arm and say I'm going to sleep too yet this time instead of waking the baby to place it down in the big ole crib you pull back the covers and curl up with your tiny tot instead.

Everyone tells you this is wrong, you shouldn't do it probably because some white trash somewhere decided to sleep with there child while they were on drugs or had been on quite the bender. Something I believe that no co sleeping parent should EVER DO!!!  really truly no parent should my opinion but thats just me.

As time has moved forward and I have gained confidence in my child and maybe she has gained confidence in herself. We decided its time to try the crib out again. she has woken up twice and I have loved and cuddled her back to sleep. She is not a cross the room in a pink nursery she is in my line of sight past the foot of my bed. which just now seems like miles away.  In the long run this is better and I realize I've given her the tools she needs to sleep on her own. I will be here to reassure her I'm always here if she needs me. However after sleeping with her for 6 months its just amazing how much I need her not that I miss having my hair pulled I will say I miss my little cuddle bug. I know this is just 1 step down a long road to her growing up