86 days to go

      Why does counting down keep me sane I dunno. Maybe I'm treating this more like a actual punishment and less of a lifestyle change Welp as long as I am Healthy... OMG I have to run in like 4 hours and BTW I"m not taking the HILL route I mean that's all well and good when I don't feel like I can walk but lets be serious.. I hate that hill... Will resume The hill on day 85!!! I do think and I made a Video about the fact you should treat working out like taking a shower. Of course you can skip taking a shower for like a day but its better if you do it Daily and you certainly would not go a week with out Showering ....(I would HOPE)!!!

       Sooo is there weight loss OH yeah 3 lbs and I"m almost positive came ENTIRELY from my boobs >.< Thanks Mother nature. Though I will admit Tinier tits will be easier to run with I just hope they just don't get all saggy and YUCK!!! you know I doubt I would ever be a A cup though.  I would Gladly Embrace a C however wouldn't it be awesome if we lost weight from our boobs like LAST!!! that would be great BIG tits make your waist look small My comparison where as TINY boobs next to big waist Not so much.

    Of course a few days after starting dieting I have been handed some Super Depressing news.... I mean we are talking FULL Ben and Jerry RIGHTS!!! I think this is common God Obviously has a Crazy since of humor and just seems to hate me. I'm also feeling crazy abandoned by all My friends, no one ever takes my calls and No one ever calls me. Would be nice if someone would actually initiate and be engaged with me. I've never felt soo Alone in all my life. I feel like I reach out but I am snubbed. I had a huge response to posting pictures on my BLog and I'm almost positive it was to gauck at my Body no one even posted a single positive comment and being that this blog entry will lack the pizazz of pictures I"m positive it will go unnoticed sent silently into the obis. Not that it would matter I can't really discuss the problem which makes it not worth talking about. Talk about Suffering Silently.

     Oh well Pity Party over I need to go to sleep. Have to jog super early in the morning

Pictures of me today!!! 8/3/13

These are my.before pictures I always hear people are sad they didn't take any. This is me stretch marks and all the body that made my wonderful.baby girl ...moms get it, I still love my body it created, delivered and still feeds one amazing little person. So don't say anything negative !!! Happy thoughts I just want to model a healthy lifestyle for my daughter.

88 Days till I'm not fat !!!

   So I have given myself a extreme weight loss Goal and in 90 days now 88 days and that will be Halloween Kinda odd that happened but just  the same I want to loose 40 lbs !! I have now stocked my fridge and pantry with Super healthy FOOD and I purchased Kettle bells Hoping to TONE up my arms. I don't know why but its like I already feel defeated not like I'm assuming I'm all a sudden going to loose weight in like 2 days but there are aspects of dieting I really don't enjoy and I dont think they are super obvious. #1 I hate that my husband will not eat any of my healthy COOKING like at all and I feeel like his family expects me to short order something for him... I hate to say it his partially to blame for me being fat he really truly only eats , pizza, fried foods, and he's not afraid of butter, salt, or anything. The super crazy thing is he is soo thin but the thing is he doesn't eat alot I mean a calories a calorie and if you eat a 1,000 calories in pizza its still just 1,000 calories MY problem is on top of that I'm stuck at home with my  child who also requires her little daily snacks. Tonight I made a decent Brown rice , Broccoli, chicken , cheese casserole THING its not super healthy and my husband is all oh it looks like DOG FOOD >.< Thanks for your support and here I am trying to get our daughter to eat healthy and I mean the things that we agreed on not saying something is YUCKY, that is SMELLS Funny.  its like they all just went out the Window.

I know this seems like a weird thing to say but I feel strange working out... Even in my home all alone I feel weird. Maybe its the way my boobs flop, my butt jiggles, my thighs claps. It's hard to feel like Jane Austin When you have boob sweat. I think the fact that I have given myself a countdown is Kind of Helping. Because its like counting down and not like thinking about it as will it ever end it feels like there is a end date. Plus have you ever tried exercising with a 1 year old in the room its practically impossible you can just forget any large Dangerous equipment and Aerobic dance I have almost stomped on her before. NOT ON PURPOSE and I didn't ...ALMOST doesn't count but I'm just saying DANGER !!  Its practically to hot and mosquito ridden outside...I have now purchased Kettlebells I'm hoping this will be something safe and effective. Only time will tell and hoping to tone up my ARMS!!

#3 COOKING healthy food is time consuming, MESSY, and as I stated earlier goes unappreciated by anyone besides me. Total rant but I'm getting super sick of my husbands Attitude lately

The Great Divide and Julia's first trip

Well This weekend is going to be a real First My daughter will be going with her grandmothers this weekend. I'm going to be redecorating the house. Since my daughter is going to get thru 2 days of not having me and bed sharing will not be possible I'm thinking of how to get her into her crib when they come back. Now we have a 1 bedroom apartment and a rather large master suite however I'm at a loss of how to get her into her bed. I feel like the only way she will EVER sleep in her bed would be if I could make it too where she can't see me. what do you do to divide a bedroom in half ? how do I hide her bed? What do I do ? Pictures to follow

Ice Cream 1rst Birthday Party

Chalk board lettering

DIY chalk Board

 This is the before it was a picture of a deer from good will It was perfect in the fact it was posted on to wood... No glass or cardboard matting to deal with...

 I pretty much didn't even waist Primer I went from this to straight Matte Black Chalk Board Paint.

 I did however PRIME The Frame in the frame you can see the spray paint I used for the color it was Called Watermelon :) Such a happy fun color huh ;)

 3 thin coats later and a little dry I just attached the deer back to the frame :)

As you can see the Chalk board is All finished :)

Project Cost :
I picked up the frame for $5 dollars
I picked up 2 cans of spray paint they were about $3.50
1 can of chalk board
1 can of watermelon
I had a sanding block and primer lying around ... if your crafty I'm sure you have a few lying around however if you dont then probably spend $4

I Figure I spend no more then $15 if you include Tax
I think it came out super cute!!!